(BEFORE YOU CONTINUE, KINDLY ENSURE THAT YOU CAN TAHAN MY LOUSY PASAR MALAM ENGLISH)
It's about 3am now,and I couldn't sleep.
Sem 3 result released today( I mean yesterday), and my Year 1 END OFFICIALLY.
|Year 1 Sem 3 Result slip ><|
Somehow or rather abit disappointed , just because I'm not satisfied with my cgpa which not yet reach my target I set when I was Sem 1 =.=
And I have set a target for myself since Sem 1 also and telling myself that,
I am only able to change my old-lousy -laggy -keep on auto restart phone only when I reach this target.
okay, 0.17 to go...
Forever no new phone...
( how about forgetting about the target??? )
I know I didn't try my best. I didn't pay much effort on it.
I know I should work harder but I am not.
I love Psychology course,sincerely.
My dream course since I was Form 4.
In order to fullfill my dream, I went through quite lots of hard time.
I know I can't do well in Science stream but I still decided to give myself a try.
And I failed my STPM and this makes me not qualified to enter Gov U .
I will not forget the time when result is released, quite a number of people treat me in sarcastic way.
Some said that I am too stubborn ,I should take those so-call "easy" subject like Economy, Business (Please, every subject have it's own uniqueness and difficulties)
Some judgmental towards me.They said I really done veryyyyy badly .
( but those people not even graduate from SPM,or even PMR =.=)
Some said that I will face poverty forever since I failed my STPM.
Some said PTPTN will surely won't approve my loan application.
Some said I am not able to earn money by the so-call "useless job"
( okay,after of 1 year henti sekolah and working, sales assistance or promoter is NOT useless job kay!!! every kind of job should be highly appreciated and respectful by the others !)
Some even look down of my parents and both of my younger brothers.
Some said that Psychology course can't guarantee a bright future, I might not get a job after I graduate.
Many people said Psychology course is for the PSYCHOs.
( YOU BARU PSYCHO!!)
I have no comment about those nonsense.
I know, I have the right to choose my path.
Nobody can force me / to stop me from doing things I like.
That's my future, not theirs.
Thanks to those arrogant individual who tried to hurt me verbally.
Just to tell you that, don't waste your time.
AND, I AM TAKING PSYCHOLOGY COURSE NOW.
My characteristic changes 180 degree in 2013.
From introvert to slightly extrovert,
quiet to talkative,
passive to active,
self-defeat to self-motivated,
defensive to willing to accept challenges.
Furthermore, I learned to protect myself from bullying, to fight for the rights ,knowing that everyone is on the same level.
Thanks to many people who help me by intrinsic motivation, I really appreciate much.
You may or may not my teacher/ lecturer, but thanks so much for you kindness ,really appreciate it =)
Thanks to my friends , who accepted me, who accompany me all the time.
I sincerely appologize if I hurt someone unconsciously, I might didn't realized that, but most of the time I doesn't meant that, just that I always like to rush so that we can finish our tasks in a shorter time and hope to do better in all of our tasks and get better result.
Hope you all don't have hard feelings because of this.( especially in sem 2 and 3)
I don't know lahh..
What I know is, I love Psychology so much, genuinely.
Till now I am still yet to regret of my choice.
Hope this feelings continue to end of course =)